Oops did i forget you!

OK so now this is like my electronic diary lol! SO I have been oh so busy lately and life is so so confusing to me i have and Old friend that ripped me off made life really hard on me said mean things about me and yet i find my self not wanting to hold on to the anger and stay mad?????  I know being her friend may be a really bad idea and it may be destructive yet for some reason (i may just be blind) i feel like she is a good person in side.
Moving on lol I have started this great new pill called XYNG and it rocks (i got it from the destructive friend) Today is the day i will start selling my jewelry and other things once they are done i started to many all at once so it is taking me a bit longer to finish lol. I need more XYNG i ran out a couple days ago i have a nanny coming to watch my kids tonight so me an my man can go watch DANE COOK!!!! So i have to get the house clean get the dogs taken care of get my inventory all set up find my sewing machine Walk the dogs do the dished clean out the cat boxes and......... I don't know yet but i am sure i have more to do lol OH YES and i kept Fiona home from school today because the roads are horrible!!! Love my Live

Espressoooooooo MMM MMM MMMM

So I am spoiled my man bought me my espresso machine yesterday and i had 3 today!!!! he also got me Knitting and Crocheting stuff!!! i Just finished my sons hat!! i will get a pic tomorrow! today again i was in bitch mode! I made one ear ring yelled a lot and need to try to write my blog at like nap time my brain is fried. OH today i wanted to go buy beads but instead had to take my mom and S/D to WM and got to go to the bead store only to see the kids took my debit card so i did not get to buy anything!! I will go back to the bead store tomorrow and get my beads! Hmm the fight today was ???? shit to many to remember i am on mega bitch to much these days PMS no smoking no more Anti anxity meds i am the least fun person to be around!! I am glad to finally being able to have something to focus on!  You know what i must add i think the fights today where all miner disagreements i am getting better at not fighting rather then getting defensive i just let the fear come out and i cry. So not like me but it helps!

oH and i got all my shopping list together for my new adventure in Jewelry and clothes making!!
I think the TRUE # i need for every thing i want is like 300 for all the tools and materials!! I am more excited about this than i have been in a good while!
So as soon as i get some funds i will get my materials for the Aprons, beads,and lots more yarn and knitting threads!! oh and a loop to make pom pom balls for all my hats!!
Thanks for reading into my craZy life enjoy yours!



This is my little Info~Fund raising sheet
So i am getting ready to start my next big business adventure and i have my first set of tools purchased and i am knitting my first hat now! I have the knitting and Crocheting stuff to beginning my hats and glove making and any other fun thing i can make! An now i have my shopping list ready to do my Jewelry all the metal stamping things i will need and most of the beading tools my list does not yet included the beads them selves but i am working on it. I am now open to donations to help get my business up and going! anyone who donated will get one of the first items made (sample items) as a thank you gift let me know what type of item you would like and in return all i ask is Please send me a picture of you wearing it!! my list is up to $100 dollars already  and i will have to price the beads stamping flats and pins/chains or leather depending on what who wants their necklaces made of. Anyhow lets see how many ppl will pitch in 1o dollars and get me 1/10th closer to my dream of being a working at home mom! If i have 5 ppl or more interested in helping i will open a paypal account! Witch i will need to sell my items anyhow! Well thank you for listening talk to you all soon i hope!

Yesterday (why why why)

Ok so I did not get on last night to give you the Low Down so sort version i am either a super mega beast or every one around me is <3 I kicked my mom out because every day it is the end of the world yesterday the end of the world came because i laughed (witch i know was not nice) about her losing her toaster. I am not making her move out yet yesterday i did say find a place by the first but we made up. I am ready to scream if I have to listen to her and her B/F fight anymore i am so so tired of listening to there shit every day the whole drug addict behavior (no they are not on drugs) it is the behavior that once you are a drug addict it never goes away. Example you lose something but can not say "I lost it" the first thing you say is some one stole it! WTF be an adult and take responsibility for your actions!

So as My and my Husband laid in bed last night we deiced here very soon we will be telling them they have till April 1st to have a car and there own place. .~~~~~QUESTION FOR YOU ~~~~~~~~~~~ Is that unreasonable they get like 300 a month now and my moms B/F can start working in like two weeks so her should already be looking for a gob in my opinion. I know they hate being here (or so they say) but i have seen no motivation to get their own place in the last year. I found them a place (one day when i was mad) for 150 a month and they could have the dog there too and thy said no thanks I am sure it is a dump for 150. WTF It would be your own place so you like making me crazy by bitching about how hard it is to live her !?!?! I do not want my mom gone i want her here with me but i want her happy most I do not know if i make her unhappy if her B/F makes her unhappy or what?????? OK  enough about my horrid day and that is not even half the BS from yesterday

GRRRRRR ADD ON

OH an today the GREAT THING my little brother Joey got full custody of his son!!! and Some BITCH sold me a busted ass espresso machine and i had to clean mold out of it went and bout replacement parts and got home to try and use it only to find out it is busted!!!! I will call this bitch back tomorrow!!!!

Bye Bye Roxie

Well I started out last night knowing i would be getting a new home for Roxie (our ferret) and we did!! Today was yet another day of no smoking and me in BITCH mode. I do not know if everyone around me thinks i am just lazy and a total ass or if i really am a total ass?! I feel like life  never slows down and like i never get a second for my self unless i stay up super late or wake up super early. I know welcome to the life of a mother and a wife but damn who do they all think we are just mindless slaves to our families? I yell i cuss i have a hard time with life. I am not the worlds bet mom i need a lot of improvement i try to get my kids everything i know they want when the most important thing i can give them is a clam kind yet consistent and strict mommy. I know every day at 6am when i wake up i need to get up and take my dogs for a walk yet i have no clue when our last walk was. I have Lucky who is 12 and pisses all over the house. So i but a Shark floor cleaner (ok two of them) yet i never use them. I have a very dirty house and i hate living in it but i hate to spend my day cleaning. I am sp spoiled i think i should not have to I should get a house keeper my mom lives here and i get $120.00 from her i feel like i should be able to hire one!?!?!? (right?) So again befor bed i ste my goals for tomorrow the smae as every day
1 ~Clean up animal poop
2 ~Do laundry
3 ~Clean AT LEAST the main floor
4 ~Try to clean the kids room and get rid of some toys!!!
5 ~Clean the bathrooms
6 ~do ANYTHING (just something) FUN with the kids
Now tomorrow i will tell you what i finished and or modified and finished
For tonight i will try to relax and get some sleep maybe tomorrow i will tell you all about the next big adventure in my at home business attempt!!!